It's a stake out!

I've let myself fall behind again. Kind of.

Let me explain. I've been continuing with my weekly comfort zone challenges. My slacking has been in the part where I promised myself to write about it.

But I did it!

So the last 2 challenges in a nutshell. My challenges were applying for a job and camping.

First up: The job. I have a tough time applying for different jobs. I lack the confidence to believe that I will be chosen, which leads to the internal dialogue that I'm supposed to be where I am even if it doesn't make me excited at the end of the day. That seems messed up, right? Plus I was applying at a place that passed me up for a different position AND it would make significantly less money.

Eek! Still scares the shit outta me.

But I turned in the letters and application and have followed up on the job, hoping there's more out there for me. I still haven't heard back on the position but keep checking and the position is still open. I keep that Longshot hope because it took 4 months to learn that I didn't get the last one. I really really really want a call back.

Challenge 2: camping.

It's not like this was the first time I went camping and it's not technically a fear. I just really don't like it. I'm cool with hiking and chillin in the forest but at the end of the day I just really want my comforts.

We went up to meet with Tony's parents. That was fine. They had another couple friends up there too. That was awkward, but ultimately it was fine.

To sum it up quickly, we rode 4-wheelers a lot. It was fun. That was a first for me also. It does make me feel like one of those charicatures of Americans who think they have the right to own everything though. Like don't mind that shrub, we can zoom right over it. Appreciate nature's beauty while emitting carbon gasses into the air.

Ok. So maybe I should stick to my bicycle.

Other than that it was a rough night's sleep. Sleeping bags make me ridiculously hot so I was tossing and turning all night. Plus it was sooo quiet I couldn't function. Not even crickets. Sigh.

We also did a little hiking and I shot my bow. I'm getting better and that was probably my favorite part of the trip.

And that's that. Stay tuned. Hopefully I stay on top of the tasks I give myself 😉